A step closer towards insanity

Actually its been a while since i wrote because i dont have anything to write........i know its a pathetic way to start....perhaps this explains why i am soo unsuccssful with women...
well well it was a long tiring weekend...i realized how tiring moving can get...gosh it was a pain. Now having settled into my new house there are things i have to get done which i still havent done which i have been wanting to do for lotsa weeks now but havent had the time to do and when i have had the time i was too lazy to do it...jeez thats a long sentence....reminds me of what my roomie says...those who write long sentences really dont know what they want to say which i think is true in this case becase i really dont know what i want to write but am just writing because i want to write something. But it is important for people who think i have no work in office to note that rite now it is not like i dont have work to do...i do there are 3 images i need to work on in photoshop and then use them and make 3 17X22 posters for some conference which is gonna happen next month. then there are also a couple of websites i need to design for some dean. but currently i am just bored of working....i made some 6 flash files of "do you know" for a CD from the morning and have been typing loads and loads of stuff. the delicious grease dripping cheese pizza with bread sticks and raspberry flavoured sweetened ice tea lunch ofcourse did not make me feel any better and only made me all the more rowdys..Zzzzzzzzzzz.....i mean drowsy....
But i have a long evening ahead of me........5 guys are coming to UK from SVCE this fall which i think is a pretty good number.....i need to watch my weight......i have been watching it......steadily climb up during the years! I wonder sometimes what i am doing with my life....I guess its all a aprt of life....there are times when i feel like a total loser and times when i feel like i am the king of the world...but i know i am not either of the two...so am i a normal human being...i dont think so either...the whole problem is i dont know who i am...who am I? but life just goes on and it goes pretty darn fast too.....anybody who reads this would definitely know i am a pathetic writer but frankly i dont care because there are times when you get into a mood when you just want to do what you want to do and just dont care about what ppl think and say...i feel that way now.....its a disturbing yet a relaxing feeling and i know i am not making sense but like i said i dont care...you dont always have to make sense because there is peace in being insane.....there is this feeling of freedom...freedom from prison of sanity where in you are bound by stupid social etiquettes, cultural values, morals etc., which is not to say  I am an immoral person.....i do have morals which is why i believe there is freedom in insanity......but time heals everything...and tommorow i may be fine...this is what makes life soo intriguing and also at the same time pathetic!
But for the time being all i need to coffee and time to myself!